When You’re Angry with God

BUT you know what JESUS did with his anger? When he was dying on the cross, blood pouring out, his sides in incredible pain, his mouth parched, his knees giving way, Jesus cried out with a loud voice, “Eloi Eloi lama sabachthani?” which means, “My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?”and then when His time arrived, Jesus, calling out with a loud voice, said, “Father, into your hands I commit my spirit!” And having said this he breathed his last. He committed His Spirit to the Lord forever. Eternity was always waiting for Him. Eternity is always waiting for you.

Right now, I’m incredibly angry with the Lord about my illnesses and the time it takes to recover. But I think our anger can come from anything relatable — whether you’re angry because you lost your job, or didn’t receive that promotion, or don’t feel His presence, or there’s a sudden death — we feel anger towards God quite frequently actually. And I often wonder, is it right to be angry with God? Because I’ll stand there – having a shouting match with the Lord with phrases like “I don’t deserve this!”. I rage and holler  “I shouldn’t have to go through this!” “This pain is too much to bear!” “Make it all go away!!!” “God I’ve been good – why are you punishing me?”

Don’t we all qualify our anger — that we’ve been good and therefore bad things shouldn’t happen to us? We say that we don’t deserve this pain – we don’t deserve this injustice – it’s all about ME, ME, ME. 

Well, anger comes in many forms and I’d like to break down the things that hold up space in our hearts and ask you to reflect on what is holding you captive today (Be honest!):

This category is of things that poison the heart:

  • Jealously
  • Envy
  • Scorn
  • Deceit
  • Malice

We see this appear in:

And since they did not see fit to acknowledge God, God gave them up to a debased mind to do what ought not to be done. They were filled with all manner of unrighteousness, evil, covetousness, malice. They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit, maliciousness. They are gossips, slanderers, haters of God, insolent, haughty, boastful, inventors of evil, disobedient to parents, foolish, faithless, heartless, ruthless. Rom 1:28-32

When my soul was embittered,
when I was pricked in heart,
I was brutish and ignorant;
I was like a beast toward you. Ps 73: 21-22

This category is of things that darken the soul:

  • Sadness
  • Anxiety
  • Depression
  • Hopelessness

“Let the day perish on which I was born,
and the night that said,
‘A man is conceived.’
Let that day be darkness!
May God above not seek it,
nor light shine upon it.
Let gloom and deep darkness claim it.
Let clouds dwell upon it;
let the blackness of the day terrify it. Job 3:3-5

This category is of things that harden your soul and quite literally kill your soul relationship with God:

  • Anger
  • Bitterness
  • Rage
  • Displaced Aggression against others

Because of the iniquity of his unjust gain I was angry,
I struck him; I hid my face and was angry,
but he went on backsliding in the way of his own heart. Is 57:17

BUT you know what JESUS did with his anger? When he was dying on the cross, blood pouring out, his sides in incredible pain, his mouth parched, his knees giving way, Jesus cried out with a loud voice, “Eloi Eloi lama sabachthani?” which means, “My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?”and then when His time arrived, Jesus, calling out with a loud voice, said, “Father, into your hands I commit my spirit!” And having said this he breathed his last. He committed His Spirit to the Lord forever. Eternity was always waiting for Him. Eternity is always waiting for you.

And this is what the Lord says about our anger. It is not righteous, nor is it pleasing to the Lord. He says…

Let not your mouth lead you into sin, and do not say before the messenger that it was a mistake. Why should God be angry at your voice and destroy the work of your hands? Ecl 5:6

Be not quick in your spirit to become angry,
for anger lodges in the heart of fools. Ecl 7:9

Friends, when you are in the midst of boiling anger, I pray that you would find the strength and the patience to endure and to seek the Father immediately. To bow down before Him and tremble in His presence knowing that He can turn your anger into gladness, your frustrations into singing praise, and your mourning into dancing. Let not our hearts be ripe with anger, but be filled with the Holy Spirit that rules our lives and controls our entire beings.

Made for Forever

What is the difference between spiritual intimacy and secular intimacy? How do we navigate the world as Christians in a fallen world? I offer some candid remarks on this topic.

The trouble I find that most Christians get into is that we try to feed our cravings for intimacy in the wrong places. What is spiritual intimacy? How is it different from secular intimacy, given by the world? I would define spiritual intimacy as a relational fulfillment of drawing near to the heart of the Father. Secular intimacy is relational closeness with other people. Secular intimacy, then, when gone haywire, is drawing fulfillment from things outside the spectrum of right orderings – such as fleeting, self-seeking pleasures like pornography, gluttony, etc.,. But here’s the first simple truth I will give you:

We were made to be in awe of God. 

Yes, dear friends, we were made to seek the Father with our whole hearts, an undivided devotion!!!

“Teacher, which commandment is the greatest in the Law?” 37 Jesus declared, “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment.… Matthew 22:37

No wonder we fall into the trap of trying to fulfill our needs with what the world gives us, and promises us with satisfy! But God calls us higher. He wants us to draw near to Him, and love Him with our whole hearts, souls, and minds. How can that be achieved when we are distracted by every day life? How can that be achieved if we are single, or married? I think at the end of the day, God wants us to give Him our best. I refrain from saying our best efforts, because God does not quantify or measure our devotion to Him. He wants us to give Him our first fruits – whether that be devotion first thing in the morning, or our first tenth of our paychecks. However we go about giving Him our best, God will respond – He will draw near to us. There is no one model to perfectly love the Lord – we all triumph and fail in this category. So how do we go about pleasing the Lord?

Jeremiah 29:13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

To be in awe of the Lord, to get to this humble position where we gaze upon the beauty and bounty of God, we must seek Him with our whole heart. We must be willing to sit in silence, and be mesmerized by a holy gaze. We must be willing to listen, and hear what He has to say to us – before we spill over our own wants. We must be willing to shut the door, and enter into relationship with Him in the secret place. We must be willing to read his Word, digest it, soak into it, and meditate on it.

There are many ways in which we can draw near to the Lord in spiritual intimacy. My prayer is that you would realize that you were not made for this fallen, temporary world. You were made for Forever. 

Did this resonate with you? How are you drawing near to the Lord in your daily life? Comments, questions, concerns are all welcome here!